For years, I relied on excuses as a distraction from fulfilling my purpose and going after my dreams. I cringe thinking about the amount of time I spent talking about my passions but not taking action because I was waiting for _____ (insert excuse here) to happen. Whether it was hitting a certain weight I had decided I needed to be, living in my dream apartment or being 100% healed & full of energy — the list goes on and on.
In 2017 I received a wake-up call. While falling more and more out of alignment with the vision I held for my life, working 12+ hour days and pushing my body way past my limit, I wound up in the emergency room and was diagnosed with Ramsay Hunt Syndrome. Within a few hours, I lost full mobility on the right side of my face.
The journey of healing from Ramsay Hunt has opened my eyes to the ways in which I was hiding from the world because of perceived external imperfections and stories around being judged. After my diagnosis I knew I had a decision to make that would affect the rest of my life, I could continue to hide, or I could show up.
It took me many months to accept what I knew in my heart to be true - I could not heal until I allowed myself to be seen.
Instead of just talking about what I wanted to do, I slowly began to take action. I allowed myself to be even more vulnerable with family and trusted friends, shared more of my story on my blog and social media, went to events, looked people in the eye, shared my story and listened to others.
I stepped out of my own bubble of fears and saw how connected we are. We are all afraid of judgment in some way or others seeing a side of us we carry shame around. When we share that vulnerability with others, it loses its power.
When I allowed myself to be seen, life began to flow and fall more in alignment. I found clarity in my business, a deeper connection to my community and the trust I held in the Universe strengthened. All of this despite not having full mobility yet, looking no different, just accepting who I am and sharing from my heart.
Through this process, I learned the most transformative lesson of all. When we are the most real, authentic version of ourselves (owning every part of our uniqueness), it gives others permission to do the same. I can’t think of anything more powerful than that.
Leave me a comment below and let me know what is holding you back from going after your dreams.
Let’s come together as a community and support one another in releasing self-judgment and showing up in the world exactly as we are.